Two Songs...singing my heart

Waiting Room
-Shane Barnard (musician/lyricist)

i will run when i cannot walk
i will sing when there is no song
i will pray when there is no prayer
i will listen when i cannot hear

sitting in the waiting room of silence
waiting for that still soft voice i know
offering my words up to the rooftop to Your heart
trusting that this closet's where You are

Lord i know if i change my mind
You will change my heart in timeS
overeign Lord this time's from You
so i sit in the waiting room of silencecause its all about You

i will fight when i cannot feel
i will trust when You dont seem real
i will tell when i cannot speak
i will step when i cannot see

sitting in the waiting room of silence
waiting for that still soft voice i know
offering my words up to the rooftop to Your heart
trusting that this closet's where You are

Lord i know if i change my mind
You will change my heart in time
Sovereign Lord this time's from You
so i sit in the waiting room of silence
'cause I’m in love with You.

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Tomorrow is a Long Time
(Nickel Creek)

If today was not an endless highway If tonight was not a crooked trail If tomorrow wasn't such a long time Then lonesome would mean nothing to me at all

Yes, and only if my own true love was waiting If I could hear his heart softly pounding Yes, and only if he was lying by me Would I lie in my bed once again

I can't see my reflection in the waters I can't speak the sounds that show no pain I can't hear the echo of my footsteps Or remember the sound of my own name

Yes, and only if my own true love was waiting If I could hear his heart softly pounding Yes, and only if he was lying by me Would I lie in my bed once again
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I'll just be open. I want to be married. I have just begun to be able to admit that out loud. I'm not in love, but I do dream about finding "my own true love." I don't think I've met a girl who doesn't do the same.

But more than wanting to be married, I want to be in love with Jesus. And I want to be like Him. If waiting for marriage is a fiery trial that will refine me, sanctifying me to be more fit for His use, then so be it.

I wanted to be married when I was 18. (How thankful I am that I wasn't!) Now I am grateful for so many years of singlehood. "And the unmarried woman is anxious about the things of the Lord, how to be holy in body and spirit..." How wonderful to have so long to grow intimate with Christ, without other things about which to be "anxious!" It doesn't make me want marriage any less, but I realize that when/if it comes I will just be trading one beautiful season of sanctifying and serving for another.

Sometimes tomorrow does seem like such a long time. Yet I have learned there is Joy and Peace and Love in waiting.

And in waiting, I pray...

"Lord God,

Keep me humble, dependent, supremely joyful...as calm and quite as a sucking child...yet earnest and active...

If thou dost make me right, I shall be right.

Lord, I belong to thee. Make me worthy of thyself."

(prayer from The Valley of Vision)